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[imperfectionisperfection]

i dont want to impress anymore

thats why i started vaa

just lots of quotes for inspiration

i mean i had a quote collection in the nullties

but only sent it to 1 person

later i find one of my quotes is on confusius page on wikiquote?

wow. it was sorta corny.

"let beauty teach you not teachers" something something more.

quite an honour.

its so warm in here. i wish i had a sheet.

i can throw away the sheet but i dunno, its comfy

they cleaned me so well by my instructions

that when i peed myself 15 mins later

it smelled like warm pee

you know that pungent strong sorta beautiful smell

ive only felt that once, i guess as a

kid as well but dont remember thats

i was in 5d, 2014

im walking to the commute station

i stop before final

i hear a woman moaning

middle eastern

so nice

i just stand next to a wall with the sound

sorta going through somewhat from above

i mean i cant fap there

so eventually i just try pissing myself

that warm glow in your pants

which i have now permanently

i guess im constipated in the pee area as well

i dont drink 3 litres of water in a day

well i do but not directly

i dont enjoy porn

but for awhile

i had a 10 cm boner

the best part was the cockhead was even hard

i could only grasp it with my right hand

since my body is slanted since i turn left

to be on the computer

i said i wanted a 3d printed tray

but they dont have the possibility to make that

and they just dont care and neither does my trustee

anyway i got new blockages on my stomache

it like bubbles up when i have my hands on it

even through sheets

and i cant have it on my legs and im too slanted now

to avoid that

anyway, i found this nice porno

just a cute young chick

fucking a strap on the wall dildo for 30 mins

i cum after 25

as in, piss myself

with 3 litres drunk water

i do 8 pisses

real warm

i dont notice it

but with the hand there

it feels better than ever cumming before

with cum i dont feel it going through the dick

i wish i could go back to that sorta fapping

like once every other week

but things change

i still try now to not get punished

anyway, the dream was real cool

so vivid

except its no colours or shapes

just pure thought

once i felt a womans hand at the previous housing

and fell asleep

i dreamt of sex and it was touch

dreams are beautiful =) <3

i feel like puking

since its soap everywhere on me

so whenever i touch it it goes on my hands

and i put dip in and switch

and disaster happens

anyway i get tired so easily now

i just have no lifeforce

and im supposed to die in 2049?

yes new bloggolingothingo

deathsentence2049

i figured id just create fake journals

but ill crosspost this there

when i quit their petrol coffee

im not tired anymore

when writing, so nice

also meant i almost stopped working out

anyway, couldnt fall asleep yesterday

so i worked out like 5 mins

and then it worked

the pain dissipated as well

just simple bicep curls on the right arm