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4195729 ind-07 2411203900830'51

thats my american social security number

i found it last year on those medicine bags i got then

to evolve it you do

4195 7/29 ind-07 2411 2039 2000 8/30 1951

2039 8/30 is my death date, i cannot get past this

2000 is i dunno, could be 1900 as well

or just double death?

4195 and 2411 i dont know really

or year 2100 when the average age of someone born is 5000 years

4195 and 2411 could be my immortalization age

or maybe when they create a religion out of me

i get so much ocd in the day, its gotten worse

except its spirits mostly telling me to remove things

like anything i write online

also telling me in which horrific ways ill die or how theyll curse me

this really started with the agitated / etheric / holy / purified water

and i drank more and more, but thats why im here

everyone else is high amount of dementia

they dont respond to calls, but stop often outside my door

so ill give them sexloosh, once i slept and woke up to 1 of those pale zombies standing there

this isnt likeminded

im scared

im so much of a vegetable now, it got better some day ago but now worse

i dont have energy for gaming, but i didnt have that before

then another time when i had 20-30 pills per day

then i couldnt use social media, i just wanted to sleep then

so i only played runescape

i lost my mirage account yet again

from the spirits

and this i summoned with the water

i just didnt care

i was high, flowing

and what mostly only happened is instead of going to bed

at 7 or so, i went to bed at 3 in the night

one night i didnt sleep

thats not a good tradeoff